Saying Bye

The fact that school has finally come to an end for me hasn't really sunk in until today when my Mum started talking to me about my Grandma. Although the two absolutely does not relate to each other in any way, the fact that my Grandpa went to hospital not long after my Grandma came out brought me to my conscience that life is so vulnerable and made me re-evaluate all the things that I have and don't have.

xXx..I don't miss school. As simple as that. At least not yet I guess. Surprisingly, nobody but Laura W. and Stewie cried at Graduation. It is rather ironic actually, Thursday (Graduation Day) was actually the only time I saw EVERYBODY at school in a really long time and it is ironic because we all went to celebrate the time of departure, and never really cherished the times we had with each other throughout the past years. I think many people are just glad to be able to finally get the hell out of this hole - this strange yet way too familiar hole we have shared for the past six years. And now we are all departing, yet I do not even feel a slight sense of distress.

xXx..Now that I think of it, I've actually only spoken to both my Grandma and Grandpa for no more than 3 tmes this year, considering the fact that we live right next to each other!Sometimes I don't understand why we have to be like this. I only found out that my Grandma went to hospital after she came out from the hospital. How effed up is that? =O And we live right next to each other! Today while I was sitting in the backyard eating my ice-cream and looking at the clouds, I suddenly heard a continuous cry coming from next door. I stopped doing what I was doing and listened carefully - it wasn;t the radio, nor the TV, nor was I imagining it. I recognised my Grandma's voice. She kept calling out for my mum and my auntie's name and nobody was answering her. Just as I was about to rush over to her house, for I was afraid that she might've fallen over and nobody was home to take care of her, my cousin's sudden reply startled me. "Are you crazy? I told you my mum was in Campsie! Stop yelling." After hearing that I think I paused for 2 minutes and thought about what just happened. Did my cousin just call my Grandma crazy? =/ I couldn't do much. So I went back inside. Because I am in no position to be disgusted nor to be mad at the lack of attention she is receiving from her grandchildren and children. Because I am one of them =/. Later on I told my mum about the incident and told her to try spend more time with Grandma - because she isn't crazy, she's just scared. Like everybody else. Scared of being left behind.

xXx..So that's it for now. Too much info x(~! Haha my brain ain't functioning properly. So I'll blog another time.

P.S. I never finished my last post >=/! Oh wells =P
P.S.S. MSN stuffing up! =[