Rant

This will be an emo post! ==' Sorry.

BUT first of all, I must thank Mandy for this awesome page haha Mandy rox!

I'm sure everyone is well aware that our HSC examinations would commence in exactly four weeks! Some people are stressing, some people are still partying *cough* and some are studyin their asses off for a stoopid piece of paper with your name and "Higher School Certificate" written on it. I tried studying yesterday. Actually, I try to study everyday but it's so hard to shift from post trials mode to complete hardcore stud mode. I opened my business book yesterday, with an intention to complete some revision notes on at least 2 of the topics but NO! it did not work out that way! I wanted to just burn it 10 minutes into reading it! Fuckin' HSC! >=[

Last night, I kind of completed my Frontline essay - I am quite proud of myself (I mean, I have completed something..finally ==") and then I just got emo. I stopped talking to everyone on MSN lol by telling them I had to go watch TV. I did go watch TV but stopped like 5 minutes after and went back into my room and stared at my computer screen and MSN list. I decided to start conversations with some other people, in hope that would make me feel better. It did help at first and then after awhile I just felt shit again. Arghh~~wtf is wrong with me? >=( And then I thought about Moonligh Resonance and I started crying OUT LOUD - like how Linda Chung would cry in it - pretty crazy to be crying like that at 12.30am in the morning! I then looked through my phone hoping I would find someone I can call so they can hear me cry (rofl) but nah I didn't find anyone appropriate - it was way to late at night><. I'm not depressed okay? I just..SIGH I just gotta think some stuff through I guess =/.

I look at you and I dont understand how you could be so happy and carefree towards everyone. Un-Ai said: "It's human nature. Once a person get what they want, all they want after that is even more." ==" If that must be the case, I would rather have not received anything in the first place. I finished watching One Tree Hill Season One last night and I think I get what Isaac is trying to say to me. But real life is different.

Sometimes..I wish things were as simple as they used to be. Actually no, things were never simple - I wish I was as simple as I used to be.